I Am All Alone...
“I am all alone.”
That is a sentence that many of us have probably said at one point or another. Maybe some of us have said it more than once. It is a phrase we hear pretty often in the work we do here at the Pregnancy Resource Center.
“I need to have the abortion because I don’t want to be alone.”
“I am the only one going through this.”
Which the phrase of being all alone is a lie. Sure, we do feel this from time to time, but as long as we don’t marinate in it. Satan loves to destroy through intimidation and isolation. I remember feeling all alone a couple of years ago accompanied with why am I doing this and why am I having to go through this. I was tired and weary. We were getting attacked online because we provide life-affirming services and DO NOT provide abortions. Silly huh? Unfortunately, it is true. Every time we have a great article about some wins and growth that has happened and the paper picks it up—I can always expect an ugly email or whatever mud people want to throw at that particular time.
I woke up one early morning in my bedroom from an alert on my phone. We were getting hammered with ugliness. Then the pity party started. The not so pretty ugly cry consumed my face—you know the one—big crocodile tears, snort crying, immediate congestion from the snot pouring from my nose. I was completely and utterly broken. Then the whys started…
“Why did you call me to this Lord? “
“Why do I have to do this?”
“Why do I have to go through this?”
On and on the whys continued, but then the crying ceased and I just sat in the middle of my bed. I opened up my bible and immediately was at peace. A huge wave of calmness came over me with a slight chill up and down my body. I knew that the Lord was right there in my midst. I had turned to 1 Peter 2:9 as if God had opened my bible and sat it in my lap and said, “Here, here my daughter. You need to read this.”
“But you are a chosen generation, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, His own special people, that you may proclaim the praises of Him who called you out of darkness into His marvelous light.” 1 Peter 2:9 NKJV
We (you reading this) are special because we belong to God. God takes ordinary people and because He works in us—we are special! Friend, you were chosen to lead for a reason. In the book of John 15:18-19 NKJV says, “If the world hates you, you know that it hated Me before it hated you. If you were of the world, the world would love its own. Yet because you are not of the world, therefore the world hates you.”
The world may throw stones and mud, but you are not alone! God is right there in your midst. Let them throw mud and let God use it to make beautiful pottery. He is shaping and continuing to refine us to His own image. He is present to comfort His child. Let me say this again—YOU were chosen to lead for a reason. Don’t quit. Don’t grow weary of doing good. You may feel unqualified, but the opposite of that is CHOSEN.
Even Elijah felt alone. He was hiding in a cave feeling defeated. The Lord came to him in that cave asking Elijah what in the world was he doing in that cave. God had clearly spoken to him so many times before. Which the Lord has done and been there for each of us as believers. Sometimes we are overwhelmed by what is happening in the world. One truth to hold onto is that you are indeed not alone!
Something I read stood out to me and I hope it does you as well. In 1 Kings 19:18 NKJV says, “Yet I have reserved seven thousand in Israel, all whose knees have not bowed to Baal, and every mouth that has not kissed him.” This right here in 1 Kings assured Elijah that he was NOT ALONE. That his work was fruitful. This also showed Elijah that his quiet ministry over the years actually bore more fruit. The Lord knows those that are His.
The next time you feel all alone—remember you are not. God is right there in your midst. Endure the pain and setbacks, listen for His small still voice, and feed your faith.
Keep going and keep growing!
